She was my reason

' Why do you find it so hard to believe that you're loved?'

She had me there.

Memento

The last two weeks have been excruciatingly tiring and yet strangely enjoyable.

Nette slept over at my house almost every other night and we'd stay up until the wee hours of the morning watching telly. Ahem. I mean, the taiwanese drama serial Meteor Garden. I know it's kind of outdated( if 6 years can be counted as that) but I never really enjoyed chinese shows especially since I was waging war with Chinese when this particular show started garnering viewers. I just have to note this down-YAN CHEN XU and ZHOU YU MIN are the hottest chinese bods around. There.

Anyway, both of us would be watching telly, eating instant noodles and sleeping on couch. We'd be waken up at 7 a.m by my Sis and Christian, have to bring Poopie to look at the pitiful terrapin(I swear I never want to become a terrapin) and then change out of our PJs and leave for breakfast with my wonderful Sis and Poopie.

The two weeks have flown by so fast I can hardly remember what we did. My Sis took the whole 2 weeks of to look after Poopie since my parents left for Jerusalem. A vacation. And you thought your parents were holy. My Dad , by the way, has quit smoking! I am so proud of him. I'm ecstatic. WELL DONE.

Spending the past few days with my Sis has really brought me closer to her. She's been so busy with her work and I've been caught up with school that we never really have had the time to talk. She's such a sweetheart.

Nette is so jolly and ridiculous and she has definitely helped lighten me up.

We were rummaging through my Sis' stuff in my brother's room which my Sis and I use to share when I discovered these little pieces of paper where my sis would print photos of adorable animals on and be wishing me good luck for my PSLE. Just brings back memories. A wave of nostalgia washed over me.

We went shopping for Christmas clothes many times. I got mine when my Sis, poopie and I went to Raffles City. Derek met the three of us last Thursday at Paragon where Nette was supposed to shop for shoes but sadly... none caught her fancy. So she's currently shoeless for Christmas. If you see a girl walking around barefoot you know who she is.
Nette and I were playing with Poopie while my Sis and Derek were sitting at a bench, chatting when we realised that Poopie'd pooped so we pushed him to Derek who was clueless and only suspected that something was wrong when we burst out laughing. Boy, Poopie's poop can really stink.

Nette was running around with him at home yesterday when he ran past her and she caught a disgusting whiff of rotten eggs. No guesses from whom the smell came from.

Anyway, back to our gallivanting adventures at Paragon. We had some coffee at Coffee Club when Poopie fell asleep and decided to sit there till Jon's work was done for the day so he could relieve us of the ultra active tyke. Bernard also came later on so it was cool.

Now that my parenst have returned, I'm starting to miss the hilarious and fun days with Poopie and Nette and my Sis and Bernard. Oh well.

Did I mention that my Sis whipped up some amazing Botham burgers, mashed potatoes and tiramisu two Saturdays back? It was Yummy-licious! Ben, Kalene, Derek, Jon and Sean came over and we just gorged on the food. Thank you Sis! It was great! Later on in the night, Nette and I decided to sneak into the room where my Sis was putting Poopie to sleep and he was talking to himself, calling out my parents' names. Haha! It was so funny.

'Mama,woah woah(he calls my Dad that)! Mama,woah woah, Ma woah!'

Then we set out the Monopoly board and Nette, Derek, Jon, Sean and I played. Intitally we were playing by the rules until Derek gave up and allowed the whole if-you-don't-notice-that-someone's-landed-on-your-land-then-sucks-to-you technique. Sean was so blur, he didn't notice even when everyone was eerily silent. Thanks to Jon, I became bankrupt while Nette, Jon and Derek( with all his bloody hotels) were brimming with cash.

Bernard also played with Nette and I a few nights before that and he lost. Hahaha!

I can't wait for Christmas now!

A shoutout to CRYSTAL, GEN, GEE, PECK YI, ERNY, PRIS, VIC, CHERYL, NEL, WC, RACHEL, SHERRIE, IZZA, CLARE, SIEW SHUAN, ETHEL, ALLY, WZ, SAMMY and STEPH.
IT'S BEEN A WONDER SPENDING THIS WHOLE YEAR WITH ALL OF YOU. YOU ARE THE ONES THAT GIVE ME A REASON TO LEAVE THE FRONT DOOR EVERY MORNING.

Crystal Ball

I have been extremely tied up with helping my sister 'look after' Christian. Ahem. I mean, screaming and laughing with him and pressing our faces against doors. Thus, I haven't been able to attend several parties/ events especially the class reunion.
Wonder how it went.

Been fun spending my whole week with my sister, Christian, Nette and Bernard.

My brother surprised me on monday morning at 6.45 a.m.

Brother: WAKE UP! It's 6.45...

Me: I've no school.

Brother:HUH?

Me:I've no schOOl.

Brother: WHAT?! I can't hear you!

Me: I HAVE NO school.

Brother: Anyway, do you want to go for Notre Dame De Paris?

Me: Oh okay.

Brother: Sure? I'm going to book the tickets you know.

Me: Yah.

I fall back to sleep and wake up later with fishfloundering in my stomach.

EFFING CRAP! I'M GOING TO WATCH NOTRE DAME DE PARIS! YEEEEEEEAAAAH!

Tried to make Nette jealous by rubbing it in because she was dying to go too. But she got her ticket too. Oh well.

Went to the zoo last week with my classmates and we were so excited, it was stupid. Can't blame someone who hasn't been to the zoo since she was 11. Gen, Erny, Peck Yi and I sat in the cool air-conditioned room after we were done with our project and people- watched. It was funny. I love people-watching. Typical girl.

I love chess.

Dear teacher...

Dear Mdm Gammar,
when I first entered class in 2005 and you were introducing yourself to us, my cousin passed the classroom and I waved vigorously at her. I got scolded and at that moment I swore to myself that you were going to be on the INSIGNIFICANT list.
This is going to sound really cliched but my opinion of you did change within a month. You profoundly influenced me. You helped me to appreciate Literature. Your presence was comforting- resting your weight on one leg with your hand on the table during Literature lessons, the rich and infectious laughter at your own jokes which no one would understand at times, when you told us to ponder our big dreams for the future.
Maybe I appreciate you so much because I did well for Literature for the whole of last year. Maybe it's because you made me want to delve deeper than I usually would into my studies. Whatever it is, you're a brilliant teacher and you defied the 'laws of being a teacher'. You were brutally honest with us and encouraged us to laugh at ourselves.
Right, this sounds so tacky but thank you. It comes down to two words. Thank You.
Thank you for being that one person who made me work my butt off.

Leave messages for Mdm Gammar at Comments, if you wish.

Overrated

And they keep saying that family is everything. Bah!

One of the old songs

I don't fully understand the purpose of me attending school when no lessons have been conducted for the past few days but since my Dad insists for no sensible reason, I have been holding it out in the impossibly cramped and hot school hall. I think I might suffer from claustrophobia. Anyway, the main point is, attending school for the past few days has helped enlightened me on the serious issues that the world is afflicted with.
Poverty.
Exploitation of women in developing countries.
The rising statistics for pre- marital sex and underage pregnancies.

Many websites and newspapers have already highlighted these issues. So here's a little something.

It is not our abilities that show who we really are, it is our choices.

(I couldn't be any more preachy)

Why Am I Afraid To Tell You Who I Am

‘Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond imagination. It is our light more than our darkness which scares us. We ask ourselves – who are we to be brilliant, beautiful, talented, and fabulous. But honestly, who are you to not be so?

You are a child of God, small games do not work in this world. For those around us to feel peace, it is not example to make ourselves small. We were born to express the glory of god that lives in us. It is not in some of us, it is in all of us. While we allow our light to shine, we unconsciously give permission for others to do the same. When we liberate ourselves from our own fears, simply our presence may liberate others.’